Therpeutic value of blogging

Blogging is very therapeutic. I can expend all my feelings on the blog - and often in doing so it helps me rationalise the situation and see solutions to problems.

This morning I have dashed around to make sure everything is as ready as possible for Edna's discharge so I can relax and have a good weekend away.

So I have been over to Fosters to make sure she has enough food in her flat, to remove one of her walking aids that she no longer needs, to arrange for delivery of the aids that NHS loanns tried to deliver on the 13th - and try to sort out what went wrong with that.

I also went through Edna's post and have paid 677 - 00 of overdue allowances paid to her, and arranged for transport to collect her for an appointmnet at the memory clinic. She also has an appopintment at the fracture clinic on 28th but she has the card for that so I can't arrange transport as I can't remember the time of her appointment or the telephone number to arrnage tranpsort.

I don't mind doing these things, but what worries me is how Edna will feel. On a good day she will be grateful. On a bad day I will be accused of treating her like an idiot.

I need to see ALL her post to help her sort it out. At the moment I cannot see any way to do that that doesn't involve me going over at least 3 times a week.

Plus I have to make sure she remembers to go to the appointments. I can't rely on her to remember on her own. But agian any attempt to help her may be seen as me accusing her of being 'daft'

I am not going to say I feel despair contemplating these issues. But I do have a high level of concern. I can't see any solutions at the moment.

So here goes with the therapy

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If I could rely on her mental faculties and memory this situation would be much more manageable. As it is I can't, I can't even rely on her to accept my help.

I may as well be honest and admit I am dreading next week. I am probably going to have to go over every other day, maybe every day if she doesn't settle in well.

I am close to being in 'rabbit in the headlights ' mode - close but I am not going to go there. I am also not going to spend time worrying futlily over thangs that may never happens or that I can do nothing about. All I can do is meet situations as they arise.

I also have faith I will find solutions. ' The universe already has all the answers'. That is what psychics believe - and so do I except I use the code name 'God' All I need to do is ask in the correct way and I will find them.

I have no doubt I will find my new meditation techniques invaluable in coping during the next few weeks.