The pain goes on

I went back to the hospital at 6 - and got let in about 10 minutes early. Mary saw me and let me in. I feel I am being given the special treatment reserved for relatives when the patient is ill. I got a cup of coffee - and I think if I had asked to stay after visiting I would have been allowed to.

There has been nothing from ROH. In fact Mary said they needed to unpack her stuff - then changed her mind and suggested I take most of it away so it doesn't have to be unpacked then re-packed when (if?) she does move.

The vist was very diffcult. She had to be persuaded to keep her mask on for her nebuliser. Getting her to take her tablets was a very long winded affair. It was obvious she had hardly touched her dinner. She created a fuss when I started trying to sort out her bags and said she didn't want me to do it. She got quite aggressive.. But when I said I would be in trouble with sister if I didn't do it she gave way.

She started hallucinating talking to people who were not there - and one point asked if Steve would tell his Dad what was going on. She was taling to Doris at one point.

I left at 8.00. I wasnt doing anything - and I know they will call me back if anything happens. I wanted to tell Mary about the halucinations when I left but she was busy and said she would talk to me later. I told Derek (one of the rehab assistants) and I know he passed the message on becasue Mary rang me later to apologise for not being able to talk to me before. She has told me Dr Goodman is going to start chasing ROH is they dont hear anything tomorrow. I had considered contactin ROH PALS, but I reckon Dr Goodman will carry more weight. I told Mary I had considered the PALS route and she said it could be a good idera. I will wait and see what Dr Goodman can do though

I have this awful thought that ROH know they can't really do anything - and dont want her to die on their ward which is why they are stalling about the bed. I do hope I am wrong. I am almost sure I am - but it is horribly plausible.